I wanna gripe too!
First off, my mother is just freaking crazy, at the begining of summer I starts looking for a job even if I'm underage, so she got mad and treaten to cu my internet conection if I continue to go looking for a job; I'm too youg, too inexperienced, should study instead (hello? summer VACATION) and eveything. Then, last week-end, she said "oh, you should think about taking a job here", we where at a lake we go every summer, and it's freaking crappy, my cousin worked there this year, and they are very very desorganized, she had to come at 7 o clock every morning just to know if today she was working or not, and often they were still asleep and she had to come back at 10, when they yelled at her for not being there at 7! Anyway, so I tolled my mother I founded the jobs there a bit "lame", she got into a fit and yelled at me about how I'm an evil hypocrite and that I think I'm "too good for this job or what". Dammit, I just want a job in this city, not in some lost hole not even on a map!
Aaaaaalso, (I got loads to gripe today) I freaking need encouragement from poeple about soemthing I'm realy unsure of... I got this person I treasure most, that I love. There's only, like 3 little problems... first off, my person lives over-sea. Never met . Internet rules. We met on a forum, tlaked about yaoi for about 2 years before confessing to each other. WEll, my love confessed and I realised my feelings. Maybe we'll meet once next summer if 'can get plane ticket. Second problems, my family is more or less traditional, or more like conventionalist. Very much so. And the one I love is asian. I never gived a single damn about people's origin, I don't get it, why should we?, but my family would. This is fucking me out. Last item, the one I like is a girl. I'm in deep shit, ne? She was a bit scared in the begining, so I cheared her up, I'm good at this, but now I eraly need someone to conford me or something... Usualy I'm very happy aobut anything, and even if my family would surely kill me if they ever knew about all this, I don't give a damn. I don't know why, today I'm just very very pissed and I realy don't want her to be sad because of any of this but today I thought I'd just talk 'bout it so maybe I could calm a bit before doing anything harsh or what.
Oh yeah, schol is starting tomorow. morning. 8:30 or something =______= I don'T get it, why should the -older- students gets to come to school the first day in the morning while the first and second years got to come in the afternoon only? and I have to resew some thing for my uniforms, and pressed it. Gosh, and I'm now in the last levels before changin school!! That mean a lot of responsability. And I have to draw the school's journal's bd, but they don't want manga ?___? (I showed them a drawing of soemthing along Arcana's style and they said it was alright. hehe, dump poeple). On the bright side, I can also makes even more running around in the corridors, with the pretense it's my last year! before I didn't had any excuses... Ah well, I want to go bak to school because I'm bored to death at home, and I want to see my friends and the school's library again (I'm such a geek) and the computers with photoshop on now (triblebilion yay!!) but I realy don't want the homeworks, the last year's final project that counts for realy realy a lot, and demoniacs teachers, and Super Scary Floating Nones!! *sob*
That was my whine of the year,
I've got a new crappy avatar too. ^^V